To my first love,

Even though its been 4 years and I've more than moved on, whenever I think about the past you are the one who dominates most of my high school memories, even though we were only together for a year. Many of these memories are so distant now, but one thing I will never forget is how much hurt you put me through. I don't know if it was the fact that no boy has taken a genuine interest in me before you came into my life, or the fact that you made me feel special and worthwhile while you fed me all your lies and sweet talk, but you really left my heart scarred when you left me.

So to you, the biggest asshole in the world, who has taken advantage of me a million times, hurt me beyond forgiveness, made me cry a litre of tears, tore my vulnerable heart apart when i was just a naive 14 year old, and most recently tried to RAPE me, Fuck you. All these years I have been way too good to you. Remember the times I was there for you when you were NOTHING. Now you think you can rule the world because you're a "big time" drug dealer? Grow Up. You think now that you've got followers and people are scared of you that you finally got the respect you deserve after being labeled a loser and faggot all through elementary and high school? Sorry, in my eyes, you are as nothing as ever. I didn't think you were like this, I always thought you were a good person inside,... but.... I couldn't have been more wrong. I feel sorry for your current girlfriend. Having ever met you is the worst thing that can happen to any girl.

A few days ago, someone made me realize... all the times I still picked up your calls or wanted to talk to you in the past...that was like choosing the person who has made my life a fucking hell all these years over all my best friends who have been there for me to pick up the pieces of me that you torn apart. Trying to rescue you from a road to self destruction was stupid, because you'll never put anyone before your selfishness. All you give a shit about is yourself. I should have let you go 4 years ago. I guess you were too big a part of me, my first love....but it shouldn't matter now after all you've done. You're just a faded memory now.

If we ever cross paths again...i hope you'll see a new me. A new me that wouldn't be afraid to ignore you, turn you down if you ask me to hangout when you are bored and want amusement, a new me that wouldn't want anything to do with you, because I know its not worth it. You are the scum beneath my shoes.

Sincerely, Jen.

PS. To all the boys that turned out the biggest douchebags in the world...

You are not worth my time.

So thank you for not letting me waste my time on you.

keep on thinking that you are such a desired guy..... be cocky about it. In the end you lost something that could have been the best you ever had.